Thursday, December 3, 2009

I'm lost....

So me and my friend are going through this thing where we feel as if we need to "find ourselves." I mean we are at a point in our lives where we should feel like we serve a purpose or we know where we stand as a person. I guess we don't know exactly where it is that we stand. For me, I feel that I don't know anything. That can sound vague so some explanation is needed. For instance, when someone asks me what I want to do after I graduate I have no idea how to answer that because I have no idea what I want to do after I graduate. Another example would be if someone would ask me if you could ask God any question what would it be? I couldn't come up with an answer. My mind seems to become blank all of the sudden. I mean it's not like I'm an idiot (at least I hope not). But sometimes I feel as if I don't have an opinion on important issues. So I guess ignorant would be the right word to describe what I've been experiencing. I HATE not knowing things like this. It scares the crap out of me. I guess college would be a good place to start looking for yourself. But then again I feel like I'm easily influenced by people. So I don't have my own opinion about things.

I know all of this may sound extremely confusing to some of you because believe me it's confusing to me too. But I guess in a sense, that's what life is all about. Just figuring life out is exhausting.

1 comment:

  1. no one, at any age, knows everything - college should be a place where you learn how to learn - don't give up!

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